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[24 Aug 2006|03:43pm] |
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I don't know how I do this, but by complete chance I happened to look back here and it has been almost EXACTLY a year since I last posted. Which is what I said in my last post about the year before. I figured it was more like 6 months, but I guess time flies. Honestly I have nothing to say. I obviously never go here anymore. I'm all up on Myspace. Laters
-cello
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| Anything goes! |
[22 Aug 2005|01:54am] |
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WELLLL, it's been probably about a year since I last wrote an entry. I suppose I'm none too dedicated to writing about my personal life in a private or public fashion. I just spent an amazing weekend with mine girlfriend Carolyn. We did all the things we love to do and it was all perfect. Before that I celebrated my 22nd birthday on Friday with my good friends Peta, Cyrus, and Erial. I love those guys so much. I'm telling you if they hadn't been around when I got to DC I would have gone crazy from lack of friendship. They saved my ass big time.
I'm now working at Borders Books and Music down on 18th and L in the heart of Downtown DC. It's a long hard job with probably not the best pay in the world. I'm actually enjoying it though, at least for the moment. I have been SO lazy this summer that it feels good to be working hard. A summer of sloth hasn't really prepared me for nine hour shifts four days a week though. I am seriously exhausted after my first week. It gets the bills payed though. Not to mention I have some really nice co-workers. Paul my supervisor, Jade and Carrie my fellow cafe sellers, and Pat a guy who trained at the same time as me, though he is a cashier. It is A LOT of new experiences for me. I have never had a job doing retail or food service and this job is exactly both. It is almost exactly like people say it is. Long hours, little pay, and not always the nicest customers. In my job's defense, Borders is a nice place, I wasn't doing anything with my time anyway, the pay isn't horrible (7.75 for the moment plus cafe tips) leading my life I can live off of it fine,and the customers are actually for the most part very congenial and do tip surprisingly often if not very ummm....highly.
Many people are wondering what the flying crap this has to do with my Cinema Studies major and how it has anything to do with eventually getting me a job in that field. Well let me tell you it has very little to do with it. I tried to get a job in whatever the crap field my major was in and it didn't really work out. So I decided I'd just like to have some job, as I haven't had many at all. This is what I ended up with and it's getting me some experience that most people have already had too much of at this point in their life. I'm fine, you're fine, we're all fine.
That's about it for now, I've been listening to music a lot lately and it makes me really like life more when I listen to good music. It fills those gaps quite nicely in life.
The World is Suffused With Sound.
-M-
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[06 May 2004|03:31am] |
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What do I believe in? Having just read an incredibly thought provoking post about how the fight for gay rights should adopt an X-Men like approach, I began to think about how self possessed my posts are. I never really apply my experience and knowledge to issues. I usually leave that to others. I'll debate if I'm outraged but otherwise I keep it to myself. Also I'm a pretty mainstream liberal so I feel like plenty of others have voiced how I feel and in a far more powerful and intelligent fashion. So what do I feel about the way things are? Bush is retarded and a horrible, heartless man. He is currently in charge of arguably the most powerful nation in the world. I will vote in the election for Kerry. I know a little about him but not as much as I should. I pray, not to any God but to the citizens of this country to elect Kerry and save a lot of people a lot of problems.
I believe gay people are just that, people. I've had many of my friends admit that they're gay or bisexual and I love every one of them just as much as I did before I knew. It wasn't till I read something in a webcomic rant that I realized how fucked up their situation really really is. Gay partners who have been living together for years can not enjoy the benefits of marriage but Britney Spears can get married for 50 something hours and get a divorce like it was nothing. That's sad.
I don't know how to feel about Iraq anymore. We probably shouldn't have gone. Many people are dead and many people are going to die still. I don't know if we can just leave it as it is now, probably not. I hope, in my small way, things get better.
Racism sucks. There's still so much of it around and it hurts me every time I realize that it's in me too. I know I'm a good person and I know that I really do think of every one as more or less equal but it's impossible not to feel one way or the other about people. Take the phrase white trash. People love to throw that around but it's just as bad as calling a black person a nigger. I've called people white trash plenty of times. I don't any more, I still think it sometimes but it makes me feel bad.
I love Japan. I think Japan and its culture is one of the most beautiful, entertaining, interesting, complex, and at times horrible things I've ever experienced. In a worthless rough estimate I'd say I'm 70% for, 30% against Japan. Just like Deng Xiaoping said about Mao Zedong and his actions as Communist ruler of China. Anyway, Japan is a country I've spent most of my teenage and now young adult life interacting with. I've watched a lot of anime and I've loved every minute of it. Contemporary Japanese film is going to be the subject of my senior thesis. Hyper-violence is great. Samurai culture has put a lot of notions and ideas in my head. Ninjas are just awesome. I've read a few books about Japan, set in Japan, and by Japanese authors. I've taken a semester of Japanese. I'd love to visit. Don't get me started on video-games and RPG's. Sake's not bad, I have an empty bottle on my desk. I love rice. I don't love sushi. I'm at times dissatisfied at other times horrified by their treatment of women. I'm sure everyone has an idea of the atrocities they committed during World War II. Obviously not all Japanese are to blame for the last two. They have an incredibly low crime rate and life expectancy. They can be pretty uptight and rigid sometimes. I love Japan. They are not perfect.
Well that's a perfect theme for this post is it not? Love it, but not perfect. Or just love and hate. Or dislike and like. You get it. I'd love to debate any of this with anyone. I'm happy with this.
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| Trying harder |
[06 May 2004|03:15am] |
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I've decided to try harder. I've decided to trim off the laziness, the procrastination, the idleness, the general wasting of time. I do too little with myself. I have lots of potential that I'm not using. I love the time that I spend goofing off and just enjoying simpler entertainment but I go too far. The more I start taking some responsibility for myself the more fun and fulfilling those small things will become. I hope that this time I hold true to this statement because I'd be lying if I hadn't said it thousands of times. I'm going to hope for the best though. I know what I need to do and that's a good start.
~Marcello
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[30 Apr 2004|04:20am] |
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Artist: The Postal Service
Song: The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
smeared black ink: your palms are sweaty and i'm
barely listening to last demands
i'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried
underneath where i am
wear my badge: a vinyl sticker with big block
letters adherent to my chest
tells your new friends i am a visitor here: i
am not permanent
and the only thing keeping me dry is where i am
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment
complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that i
am just visiting
and i am finally seeing why i was the one worth
leaving
d.c. sleeps alone tonight
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment
complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that i
am just visiting
and i am finally seeing why i was the one worth
leaving
the district sleeps alone tonight after the bars turn
out their lights
and send the autos swerving into the loneliest
evening
and i am finally seeing why i was the one worth
leaving
(a little song about missing someone, (no I haven't broken up with anyone) and missing where you're from)
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| Slicey slicey |
[27 Apr 2004|12:19pm] |
Take the quiz: "Blades!"
Katana
You are speed and finesse. Your refined moves are often superior to brutish and clumsy power.
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| Long long long time |
[26 Apr 2004|01:03am] |
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Well I literally haven't posted in just over a year it seems. I was never one to be consistent with writing journals. Actually that's not quite true. I was consistent in that I would write in one for a week or two and then stop for many months before I would write again. As outgoing as I may be in person I actually keep to myself most of the time. I'm not one for spouting out how I feel on a whim. It usually takes feelings a while to build up till I let them out.
Right now I'm a little tired and alone. I guess alone isn't a feeling since I'm literally alone in my room, but whatever. I'm really straining to think of something good to say or discuss but I don't do this often enough to know how to.
Hmmmmm...fine what's making me happy right now....A newfound love for Foreigner. Manga by the names of One Piece and Naruto. Getting my Sandman comics back and reading my new one. Meeting David Mack and having him sign the copies of Kabuki I bought and the many free things he added in. Double Stuf Oreos, buy one get one free. Watching bloody Japanese films as research for one of my final papers. My empty bottle of sake. Getting tighter muscles from going to the gym for the first time in months. Buying Ghost Dog: Way of the Samurai on DVD. Well time to go here's a shoutout to all of my friend's new and old, you guys rock.
Oh yeah and Angel's almost over and that really blows. >_<
~cello
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| Bored as Hell! |
[09 Apr 2003|02:37am] |
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I'm just gonna curse now, k? I'm so god damn, mother fucking, bored right now. I mean shit shit shit shit I'm bored. I have nothing better to do than write a stupid piece of crap journal entry at a site I haven't visited in a fucking decade and all I do is curse and shit because I'm so outrageously bored out of my mother fucking skull! SHIT CRap damn hell. Frosted nuts...>_< FUCK I need some god damn company on this mother fucking school. I miss the god damn friends I don't even fucking talk to anymore. They don't give a flying fuck about me either though! WHich I guess is justified because I don't do diddly squat to talk to them either. But fuck! I hate this boring two tone piece of shit life I'm living. I just miss laughing...I'm gonna cry...this is so depressing.... FUCK SHIT CRAP....oh man, this is so sad. Fuck you asshole! Son of a bitch I need someone to mellow me out. I SPEND SO MUCH OF MY GOD DAMN TIME IN MY GOD DAMN ROOM THAT IT SICKENS ME. I'm so freaking lame. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! Now I'm just this close to coughing up blood on my god damn computer...this sucks...
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| Hmmm... |
[31 Jan 2003|07:16pm] |
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I find that I hate myself after reading my old journal entries. I mean they're always so packed with meaning and deep thoughts and crap... It's just weird knowing that I felt that emotional when I wrote them. I guess that IS what journals are for, but still. I guess it also has to do with the fact that ever since I got to college I've been feeling myself get so much smarter. Everyday I feel like I bust out with some knowledge I never expected I'd know or be able to use. It's kinda scary. Wait, so my old journals are weird cause I always feel so much more mature and cool headed when I read them. That "old" me seems so whiny/preachy/I'm so smart because I know what I'm feeling. Well the same thing's going to happen when I read this in a few months so maybe I shouls shut up now. heh, I'm so lame.
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| Bored and Alone, yeay! |
[24 Nov 2002|09:40pm] |
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Back from yet another illustrious weekend in New York City. As soon as I get back though I slump once again into my feeling of worthless boredom. I wonder of I thrive on being alone. As much as it is obviously is not doing anything for me, being alone like this is never really bad for me. Yeah I may wine and gripe a little but that's about it. It depresses me a lot less then I thought it does. I still have a hozillion times more fun when I'm being entertained or entertaining friends, but hey being alone can be fun. I've never felt bad about being an only child, not ever, not once. Being alone, I find, is a big part of life and the key is to go with it and enjoy it. I'll have most of my adult life filled with the companionship of friends that I can drive to, see at work, my wife, my children, and everyone else. I'm going to be happy when I'm alone now and cherish the times that I'm with family, friends, and loved ones that much more when I have it. I refuse to go through life hating myself. I'm at a point where I have to be happy with my place or else I will flounder and never even to start to work toward better things. I'm telling myself right now that maybe the reason I'm lonely now is because I want to be. I'm hoping this isn't all denial ^_^, but if it is, it's only making me happier so ha.
Marcello~ Man of What the Hell is He Talking About?
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| Nice party, pity I wasn't invited. |
[20 Nov 2002|07:04pm] |
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At school, not doing much, putting of reading. Ate a very big dinner. Slept very late today. Don't know what to write about. I've been wanting it to be Tursday night every other second. ALmost Thanksgiving! Hell, it's almost Winter Break! Okay, later!
~Marcello
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| Cooblahdah!! |
[16 Nov 2002|01:01am] |
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I started playing Super Metroid in honor of the release of Metroid Prime. It was freaking amazing like everyone says...yipee! This game along with the reviews for Metroid Prime really make me want to get a freaking Game Cube. I mean Metroid Prime sounds sooooooo great. But I miss my PS2 more then ANYTHING!!!!!! (note: except my parents and girlfriend)Poor lonely Playstation...
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| FIREBOAT! |
[07 Nov 2002|12:31am] |
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Back from DC after a nice five plus days of no school bliss. Got to see my girl, my parents, my room, and even had time for some anime. I had more red meat this weekend then any man should ever have. I had steak three times and venison. Plus I had meat tortellini and a grilled ham and cheese sandwiches. Now I know that sounds pretty bad, but I've been eating dining hall crap food for the past few months so I like to call it stockpiling protein, k?
I also bought the Spider-Man DVD at around 12 o' clock am on November 1st. Man it is so freaking sweet. I am very happy with my Spidey purchase. I only had one class today as usual and I have my usual three classes tomorrow, but that's it for the week. I love having a four class week after five days off. I now have at school my coat, sassy urchin boy hat and my Chelsea: Pride of London scarf. Winter, I'm ready for you.
I saw Punch Drunk Love this weekend and was it ever enjoyable. If you want to see a movie that keeps you off guard, vulnerable, entranced, touched, outraged, shocked, scared, happy, content, and much more see this god damn movie. This is one of those movies that I really feel some kind of deep connection with. There was never a point in that movie that I wouldn't do and feel exactly like Adam Sandler does. I also saw Death to Smoochy and while the beginning was a little rocky, that movie was definitely underrated, rent it please, it's for the babies....Ok I don't know why I said that.
I got a crazy-cool new shirt from my girlfriend. It says DCFD (DC Fire Department) and under the department symbol it says....fireboat.....what the hell is a fireboat? If you know don't tell me. I like just thinking of a really hot, fast boat that's naturally on fire. It strikes fear into the heart of criminals. It's like Nightboat! Either that or it puts out water that's on fire. *shrug*
Peace and love I'm out,
Marcell-mo X Billion
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[31 Oct 2002|02:04am] |
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i've seen you now about the fourth time baby
but you know that i've got nothing to say
its so charming to look on your face but your eyes
inviting something i just can't do now i've been around
about you hood i'm looking for you just to shine some light
on my day feels like ages since i've been out your way
i've been caught up with handful of new sensation
i hear you calling calling for me out in the night but it's all bad and i know that
Gob~ I Here You Calling
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| A good laugh |
[31 Oct 2002|01:46am] |
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"Do you know about the black arts, son?"
"What, like, hip hop? Sure, I'm down with that."
"No, necromancy!"
~Scarygoround webcomic~
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| Wabadoo haa! |
[28 Oct 2002|11:06pm] |
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I'm in a groovy mood of all things. Cause I got luv. OOoooooohhh... I do do but that's only part of my good mood. Great weekend behind me and a great weekend ahead of me. This weekend I went to NYC and met up with Travis as usual, but there was MUCH TO DO! On Friday we saw the Ring, which was really creepy and we saw this Canadian new cult werewolf hot young teenagers movie called Ginger Snaps. It's really funny, which it's actually supposed to be as opposed to so bad it's funny, and the special effects rock. Then the next day I acted in one of Trav's friends films. I was a tourist who switched suitcases with a homicidal maniac, when I return it to him I get slaughtered. Yeay! Later that day we went over to Trav's uncle's house which is always great cause it means food, toys, and great tv and movies. Example: spicy chicken wings, IBC Root beer, two ice cream sandwiches, and a really really weird bondage superhero movie. Let me explain, Trav's Uncle makes these really awsome movies old school style, with spies, superhero mexican wrestlers, hot chicks in leather, monsters, and all that good stuff. He's actually kinda well known actually. Anyway some not quite right guy in Illinois says that Pat, Trav's uncle, is his greatest inspiration. So he sends him movies about two superhero girls who like in every other scene get "captured" in some sort of bondage trap or another. It gets creepier and creepier as it goes along making you have horrible nightmares if you watch it alone late at night. Moving along the next Trav, me, his uncle, two of his uncle's friends, and his uncle's cool five year old son go to the Chiller Show, a horror, toy, anime, bootleg tape, superhero convention thing. It was really really cool. I had a great time. All I bought was a three dollar Evil Dead 2 DVD which is just amazing. Stupid being broke. Then later that day we went to a club in Brooklyn to see Daniel's new band Black Eyes and Q and not U! It was SWEEEEEEEEEET!!! Black Eyes was great but Q and not U was simply amazing. I hung out with Trav and Danny and met a big group of trav's other friends, not the ones from the movie shoot, and they were very cool. They were so nice to me and we're always laughing and joking around. Eventually we wound up at Trav's house and collapsed into wonderful sleep. Then I had to get up early the next day to get back to school, but whatever I took a three hour nap in the middle of the day and skipped one of my classes. ^_^ Now I just finished my laundry and finally have clean clothes! *Phew* That's not even it! On Thursday it's Halloween and I'm going to a party with Trav in NYC. Then the next day I go back hom for five whole days. I get to see my parents, be with my girlfriend, eat GREAT food, watch GREAT movies, and be just very very happy! How can I not be in a good mood? There is no possible way not to be. I love you all!
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| Choobee Choo |
[20 Oct 2002|07:46pm] |
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Nothing puts me in a great mood like reading some Love Hina manga, buying Blade Runner on DVD, listening to good music, calling my roommate stupid, and reading today's Something Positive web comic. Good for me!
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| Choobee Choo |
[20 Oct 2002|07:46pm] |
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Nothing makes me be in a great mood like reading some Love Hina manga, buying Blade Runner on DVD, listening to good music, calling my roommate stupid, and reading today's Something Positive web comic. Good for me!
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| ARGH A LOT IN THE FACE!!!!!!! |
[20 Oct 2002|04:44am] |
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I just wrote a very long, heart felt post and it just got erased....all of it....in a mere second of stupidity. I am REALLY tired now. Summary time then: I miss my friends and all of those old great friend moments. I still have a okay time at college though. I WISH EVERYTHING HADN"T BEEN ERASED GOD DAMN IT CAUSE THERE IS NO WAY I CAN SUMMARIZE EVERYHTING I JUST WROTE DOWN................................-_O;;
*takes a deep breath* Well that's a little better. I'm gonna go grumble myself to sleep now. Later.
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| Anime, RPG's, and Dragons |
[04 Oct 2002|03:50am] |
My last journal was not so happy, but like I say it varies. I'm happy now it's late in my room and I'm tired. But I'm still happy! I miss all of my friends dearly. Especially the ones I didn't get to see even whe I was in DC for the summer, like Angela and Zahdi. Oh well, I get to watch a lot of anime here, I download it as there is no place to rent it around here and I'm not exactly full of dough to buy any. Though I did buy Princess Mononoke on DVD, I'm not totally being a crook. I'm currently watching Cowboy Bebop (subtitled of course), Inu Yasha (I've been doing that for a while, but as it is still running in Japan there's always plenty to watch), and lastly I just started watching Final Fantasy Unlimited which is pretty freaking cool, if not a little short/confusing. I'm also playing old school SNES RPG's I finished up Final Fantasy 3/6 and I'm just starting the Secret of Mana. So I'm living a dork wonderland...I still miss my friends. But hey my girlfriend and her sister are visiting me tomorrow so joys of joy! Oh and I'm going to an anime convention in New Jersey next week. This entry is lasting A LOT longer then I thought it would. Good night.
A GOLD Dragon Lies Beneath!
I took the Inner Dragon online quiz and found out I am a Gold Dragon on the inside. My Inner Dragon is the most honorable of all. Golds are the third rarest of all the dragons (after Platinum and Chromatic dragons) and have a station in society that reflects their rarity. I am what one might call a Draconic Knight. Golds live by a strict code of chivalry and commitment. Remember Draco? Yep, Gold Dragon. My appearance is fearsome and all-mighty but I'd never stoop so low as to bring any harm to a human. I'm one of only two dragon types that are aligned "Lawful Good" and demonstrate great magical proficiency. My piety, beauty, wisdom, and inner strengrth are absolutely without parallel.
Of course, being a Gold Dragon isn't all high ethics and codes. I like to fly around scaring things, advise humans in their affairs, and shapeshift. Strike that, I LOVE to shapeshift. And I'm great at it. In fact, who's to say I'm not really a Gold Dragon after all? My favorable attributes are honor, truth, kindness, gold, wisdom, bravery, and trustworthiness. If anyone threatens or tries to kill me, I could strike back with my breath weapon - Fire. But then, no one's tried anything that stupid in the last couple thousand years. After all, I'm about 54 feet long.
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